Well you may not believe but my ex was same. Everynight she was pleading for me (for no proper reason.) to never leave her side and dreamed of marriage. And infact i was the one keep telling her "listen, things may not go as it does right now. There may come a day you might not like me. So its better to focus on the present". But she pleaded so many times over the years and i was going along the journey.

My story went cold a new year day with rings in my hand (i didnt have a chance to ask her , by the time things went sour, i couldnt. It would look extremely desperate). And I knew she was unstable and unfortunately a volatile person. Even though i knew this, i still cared for her. But things didnt go the way they were ment to. And though i accepted this, it scared me deeply, making me feel like i have done something wrong in order to receive this result. Eithercase, i manned it up since than. Im not doing anything but dwell within solitude and try to let this one go away as much as i can. My only and biggest problem is nightmares im having every goddamn night. if only i can take a break from this, ill be able to live normal again.

Well, eithrcase, sorry for shitting on your wall like this.

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There are so many different worlds.
So many different suns
And We have just one world,
But we live in different ones...

Also.. Your website. Holy crap that's amazing x_x